Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Giving Thanks

It seems lately that sadness is all around me. My best friends mom is fighting cancer, one of our good online friend's friend's hubby passed away suddenly. My childhood friend just lost a close friend of hers also suddenly. Do you ever get the feeling that the earth beneath your feet has yet to settle?

My dad's passing marked it's 3rd month a couple of days ago and I was a wreck. I know he has passed on and is in a better place but yesterday for a split second I forgot. How I could forget when he is the first thing I think of when I wake and the last when I put my head on the pillow is beyond me, yet somehow, for a split second I forgot he was gone. And then it dawned on me, I would never hear my dad's voice again. I had to steady myself from bawling at work. My desk sits in front of rows and rows of windows. It is truly a gorgeous spot. Anyway, after my realization this little brown bird flew up to the window, he was so close you could hear the fluttering of his wings against the closed window. He looked right at me then flew away! What does it mean? I am not sure, but it brought me comfort when I was at a low point. So I give thanks to the little bird and maybe his poor eyesight. ;)

What I wanted to blog about today is giving thanks, when things seem tough or uncertain. I am trying be more of the glass is half full, rather than its half empty personality. I decided to create a "grateful journal" and write daily what I am grateful for. It is so easy to see the negative when life is so chaotic and ignore the positive. So today's thanks is to meeting all of you. Being invited into your homes, your lives and your journey through life. Thank you! I am also thankful for family. Here and above, for who they are has shaped me and who it is I desire to be. I keep this little gem I purchsed at JoAnn Fabrics for $1.99 last Thanksgiving, right next to my kitchen sink. I don't think I could have said it any better.

What are you all grateful for?


~ Marcia

2 comments:

  1. I've trying to do the same thing lately- give thanks, be thankful, really see all the blessings I have. The loss of my friend's husband has made me squeeze my hubby a little tighter and realize how good I have it.

    I am sorry you've been having a hard time with your dad. I can't even imagine. I am sure that little birdie was totally a sign that everything is okay and that you are okay. Angels (your dad) have a way of showing us they are all around.

    Love and hugs,
    Kim

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  2. Hi Marcia,
    Thanks for visiting my blog. I am so sorry for the loss of your dad. I lost my brother at age 30 to a heart attack. The loss was tremendous, but I will tell you that time helps. I know that this doesn't compare to the loss of a parent. God see's your pain and you can trust that he will wrap his loving arms around you and give you peace. I will continue to follow your blog. Oh, by the way you are beautiful without trying to stay ahead of the age game. It will exhaust you, believe me I know.

    Smiles!
    Marie

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